ALhamdulillah, I am a witty person. I don't make non stop hilarious knock you off your chair jokes, but every so often I say something which is considerably funny. Then I ruin it. I don't know why...I know that saying any more will ruin it, yet I consistantly do it. Meh...

I need some yarn, but its this very specific multicolor yarn by Red heart, because I already started a scarf with it, but it's only half as long as it needs to be. The problem is, it's yarn my mom bought a long time ago and it is out of production. I've checked online, in random stores, walmart, etc...no one has it. Sigh... so, I might have to buy some similar looking yarn, but obviously different and complete the scarf. I have started on my blue multicolor scarf as well, but my mom and I are experimenting with the various stitches, so it doesn't look like much right now.

I wanted to post something deep and meaningul, but I'm not up to it, so shallow and meaningless it is.

I am always looking for something productive to do over the summer. I've realized now is the best time to look for something. =) So, right now my options are packing and making arrangements for Misr (which will be done anyway, inshaAllah), hanging out with my family, tutoring over the summer, teaching locally over the summer, taking an internship with ISNA, going back to al-azhar in H-town, or counseling at Ole Miss again. I've been to H-town, and done the counseling at Ole Miss...they were both good but I might want to try something new, a new city is always a plus...especially when its paid for =D

Happy(ness is relevant)

I went to Taco Bell after a while and I got some fire sauce packets, I had never seen before. They said: "Ah...we meet again," "Scratch and Sniff: GOTCHA," "Thanks for rescuing me. At night the sporks poke me." =)

My big du'a for the week: Ya Allah, help me to stop sucking so incredibly bad. =(

I haven't cried since last december. not for lack of reason to... but because I'm cold...=/ That is saddest thing, since decemeber.

If you're bored, and you're my friend... call me on Mondays or Wednesdays at 10-11 am CST or 4-5pm CST. Those are time I commute... I get really bored. Sometimes I want to take a nap, but cruise control doesn't control the steering for me. Anyhow, gimme a buzz between those times and we can catch up. =D

Here is a time zone converter in case you don't live in the Central time zone.
http://www.timezoneconverter.com/

HappyS for today:

I heard from someone who was deeply missed and I was worried about.

I got to talk to my mom for the first time since she left. It still seems a bit unreal to me that she is gone, but inshaAllah everything will go smoothly until she gets back.

Happy for today: I'm alive and breathing, alhamdulillah. In all honesty though, I'm on the brink of breaking down.

"A religion true to its nature must also be concerned about man's social conditions... Any religion that professes to be concerned with the souls of men and is not concerned with the slums that damn them, the economic conditions that strangle them, and the social conditions that cripple them is a dry-as-dust religion... Such a religion is the kind the Marxists like to see - an opiate of the people. "

Happy for today:

I felt really awesome today, Alhamdulillah. I went to the high school library and got a few books for my adolescent literature class. I turned to ask when they were due back... NO DUE DATE!! that is so incredibly awesome, Alhamdulillah. (i am a geek)

Happy for Thursday,
I just finished The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton. It was a really good book. I have been reading alot, but I haven't liked anything as much as this lately.

Happy for Wednesday,
My really cool friend from Idaho called me. Then she called again just to hear my voicemail. =)

Happy for Tuesday,
I am getting a promotion at work, Alhamdulillah.

Happy for Monday,
I had a decent parking spot, Alhamdulillah.

Happy for Sunday:

It took me some time to come up with today's happy. Not because it was a sad day, but rather it was rather slow and unproductive. There wasn't much of an up or down to it. Alhamdulillah. I guess it would be that I got to relax at home.

Happy for Saturday:

A good friend called me today for the first time and made me laugh. This day has been marked. =) Alhamdulillah.

Happy for Friday:

My scholarship posted. Alhamdulillah. =D

Happy for today:

My dad's surgery went fine. =) Alhamdulillah.

Happy for today:
My brother took me out for lunch and we got to hang out for a little while. Alhamdulillah.

It's been a long day. The commute gets tiresome and boring. The TESL class is interesting. Definately a diverse group of people. I am looking forward to it. Although... everyone is a graduate student in there with a few years of experience - a little intimidating. I found out I am not eligible for the Mississippi Teacher Corp or Teach for America (the upside to the programs being they pay for a masters if you decide to teach with them for two years), however I'll look into the teacher fellowship program. They require a three year committment...=S I don't want to be here another three years, but inshaAllah I'll keep the option open. I'm polishing up my teaching resume and freely distributing it from atop tall buildings in major cities across north america and especially near islamic schools. Allahu alam if I'll get any serious offers, but I could focus all my efforts on a year of TESL and learning arabic in Egypt. They say you can't learn a language very well as you grow older. (they=linguists) **sigh** May seems to be coming so quickly...Alhamdulillah.

"Happy" for today:
The Dean brought a tray of cookies and brownies for the staff. I helped myself to a brownie. Alhamdulillah.

tempered, seething, seering, condemned, tranquil, familiar.
emotion, sadness, pain, joy, anger, pain, love.
constant, abrupt, sharp, mournfully, cathartic, enveloped
death, disease, corruption, immorality, horror, experience
purity, innocence, lillies, sunrays, chai, a mushaf...

I've inherited my mother's sneezing sensibilities. Never letting a sneeze be alone I always sneeze in multiples- usually in the mornings or because of some dust or something. Recently I developed allergies though. In fits of 20-25 at a time. The mystery is what it is caused by. While making some daal, I sniffed various little jars of spices to find the garam masala, yet... not a single sneeze. I can walk through the detergent aisle at Wal-Mart and break sneezing records. I sneeze while I'm in the house, in the shower, outside, while driving, and I think I'm just allergic to air and life. Alhamdulillah.

I think my allergies are okay now...not because they've stopped, but because they help me to thank Allah... nearly hundreds of times a day. Thank Allah that my worries consist of sneezes, not bombs or starvation, death or poverty, imprisonment or prosecution.

May He grant patience to the Muslimeen all over the world facing trials and hardships which most of us cannot begin to understand the implications of. May the oppressed be liberated, the jailed and imprisoned be freed, may those tested with trials succeed, and may those facing hardships have more patience than they will ever need. May He reward them, expiate their sins, and grant them lofty abodes in Jannatul-Firdaws. Ameen, thooma ameen.