Happy(ness is relevant)

I went to Taco Bell after a while and I got some fire sauce packets, I had never seen before. They said: "Ah...we meet again," "Scratch and Sniff: GOTCHA," "Thanks for rescuing me. At night the sporks poke me." =)

My big du'a for the week: Ya Allah, help me to stop sucking so incredibly bad. =(

I haven't cried since last december. not for lack of reason to... but because I'm cold...=/ That is saddest thing, since decemeber.

If you're bored, and you're my friend... call me on Mondays or Wednesdays at 10-11 am CST or 4-5pm CST. Those are time I commute... I get really bored. Sometimes I want to take a nap, but cruise control doesn't control the steering for me. Anyhow, gimme a buzz between those times and we can catch up. =D

Here is a time zone converter in case you don't live in the Central time zone.
http://www.timezoneconverter.com/

HappyS for today:

I heard from someone who was deeply missed and I was worried about.

I got to talk to my mom for the first time since she left. It still seems a bit unreal to me that she is gone, but inshaAllah everything will go smoothly until she gets back.

Happy for today: I'm alive and breathing, alhamdulillah. In all honesty though, I'm on the brink of breaking down.

"A religion true to its nature must also be concerned about man's social conditions... Any religion that professes to be concerned with the souls of men and is not concerned with the slums that damn them, the economic conditions that strangle them, and the social conditions that cripple them is a dry-as-dust religion... Such a religion is the kind the Marxists like to see - an opiate of the people. "

Happy for today:

I felt really awesome today, Alhamdulillah. I went to the high school library and got a few books for my adolescent literature class. I turned to ask when they were due back... NO DUE DATE!! that is so incredibly awesome, Alhamdulillah. (i am a geek)

Happy for Thursday,
I just finished The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton. It was a really good book. I have been reading alot, but I haven't liked anything as much as this lately.

Happy for Wednesday,
My really cool friend from Idaho called me. Then she called again just to hear my voicemail. =)

Happy for Tuesday,
I am getting a promotion at work, Alhamdulillah.

Happy for Monday,
I had a decent parking spot, Alhamdulillah.

Happy for Sunday:

It took me some time to come up with today's happy. Not because it was a sad day, but rather it was rather slow and unproductive. There wasn't much of an up or down to it. Alhamdulillah. I guess it would be that I got to relax at home.

Happy for Saturday:

A good friend called me today for the first time and made me laugh. This day has been marked. =) Alhamdulillah.

Happy for Friday:

My scholarship posted. Alhamdulillah. =D

Happy for today:

My dad's surgery went fine. =) Alhamdulillah.

Happy for today:
My brother took me out for lunch and we got to hang out for a little while. Alhamdulillah.

It's been a long day. The commute gets tiresome and boring. The TESL class is interesting. Definately a diverse group of people. I am looking forward to it. Although... everyone is a graduate student in there with a few years of experience - a little intimidating. I found out I am not eligible for the Mississippi Teacher Corp or Teach for America (the upside to the programs being they pay for a masters if you decide to teach with them for two years), however I'll look into the teacher fellowship program. They require a three year committment...=S I don't want to be here another three years, but inshaAllah I'll keep the option open. I'm polishing up my teaching resume and freely distributing it from atop tall buildings in major cities across north america and especially near islamic schools. Allahu alam if I'll get any serious offers, but I could focus all my efforts on a year of TESL and learning arabic in Egypt. They say you can't learn a language very well as you grow older. (they=linguists) **sigh** May seems to be coming so quickly...Alhamdulillah.

"Happy" for today:
The Dean brought a tray of cookies and brownies for the staff. I helped myself to a brownie. Alhamdulillah.

tempered, seething, seering, condemned, tranquil, familiar.
emotion, sadness, pain, joy, anger, pain, love.
constant, abrupt, sharp, mournfully, cathartic, enveloped
death, disease, corruption, immorality, horror, experience
purity, innocence, lillies, sunrays, chai, a mushaf...

I've inherited my mother's sneezing sensibilities. Never letting a sneeze be alone I always sneeze in multiples- usually in the mornings or because of some dust or something. Recently I developed allergies though. In fits of 20-25 at a time. The mystery is what it is caused by. While making some daal, I sniffed various little jars of spices to find the garam masala, yet... not a single sneeze. I can walk through the detergent aisle at Wal-Mart and break sneezing records. I sneeze while I'm in the house, in the shower, outside, while driving, and I think I'm just allergic to air and life. Alhamdulillah.

I think my allergies are okay now...not because they've stopped, but because they help me to thank Allah... nearly hundreds of times a day. Thank Allah that my worries consist of sneezes, not bombs or starvation, death or poverty, imprisonment or prosecution.

May He grant patience to the Muslimeen all over the world facing trials and hardships which most of us cannot begin to understand the implications of. May the oppressed be liberated, the jailed and imprisoned be freed, may those tested with trials succeed, and may those facing hardships have more patience than they will ever need. May He reward them, expiate their sins, and grant them lofty abodes in Jannatul-Firdaws. Ameen, thooma ameen.

• "Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-a-vis an introduction, so let me simply add that it's my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V." -- V's introduction to Evey

I confess I am petrified... petrified of losing everything I once had, or had the delusion of "having." I am deluded enough to think that what I am blessed with & is a loan to me - is "mine." To face sickness after health, betrayal and abandonment after love and friendship are struggles, however, the scariest aspect of this is to fail these tests miserably. Will I be pushed to the point of my absolute threshold and tolerance? will my limited supply of patience end before the trial does?

There is a girl who is a little attention hungry. well, that's an understatement, but anyway I want her to not behave that way, because its not making her cool and she's giving some people around her a hard time. But at the same time I know how it feels to want attention. in fact, I want plenty of attention , I just have to tell my nafs shushuppa.

i'm drowning in work and school now, but inshaAllah will update at some point. um, sharissa dear... I <3 you and I'll fix that link at some point, inshaAllah. I hope you're doing good.

Someone
someone is dressing up for death today, a change of skirt or tie
eating a final feast of buttered sliced pan, tea
scarcely having noticed the erection that was his last
shaving his face to marble for the icy laying out
spraying with deodorant her coarse armpit grass
someone today is leaving home on business
saluting, terminally, the neighbours who will join in the cortege
someone is paring his nails for the last time, a precious moment
someone's waist will not be marked with elastic in the future
someone is putting out milkbottles for a day that will not come
someone's fresh breath is about to be taken clean away
someone is writing a cheque that will be rejected as 'drawer deceased'
someone is circling posthumous dates on a calendar
someone is listening to an irrelevant weather forecast
someone is making rash promises to friends
someone's coffin is being sanded, laminated, shined
who feels this morning quite as well as ever
someone if asked would find nothing remarkable in today's date
perfume and goodbyes her final will and testament
someone today is seeing the world for the last time
as innocently as he had seen it first
-DO'D