Seven and a half

It took seven and a half days for the
Sun to come out after she died that day
What can you say to him only twenty
two ? He knows the truth, and so he might,
he might write about it to cope with the hole
Instead he'll fight about it and cling to what's left
Ever wonder what your life would be like in a million
jagged pieces strewn across time? The worst
part is - he stayed sane and had to deal with all
his and our emotions. He had seen her smile his
whole life, even when he couldn't fathom a smirk.
All the towels stacked neatly in the closet
and skinned knees on their way to healing.
The sun came out and there was every smile
he ever knew. Her memory could not be clouded
So what do you tell him only twenty two,
when all the smiles of his life have disappeared in
seven and a half days forever? Sunless-
the bruises hardly heal and messy towels
leave him distraught searching for life.

Everything here isn't about me. everything spoken, felt or thought here isn't always me. just a disclaimer =)

Love is not all: It is not meat nor drink
Nor slumber nor a roof against the rain,
Nor yet a floating spar to men that sink
and rise and sink and rise and sink again.
Love cannot fill the thickened lung with breath
Nor clean the blood, nor set the fractured bone;
Yet many a man is making friends with death
even as I speak, for lack of love alone.
It well may be that in a difficult hour,
pinned down by need and moaning for release
or nagged by want past resolution's power,
I might be driven to sell your love for peace,
Or trade the memory of this night for food.
It may well be. I do not think I would.

 -- Edna St. Vincent Millay

Stop ruining me
till all that's left
are hopes and dreams
with psuedo realities
and psychotic smiles.

Stop ruining me.
humbly tainted and corrupted
old habits die hard
especially when they're
destructive.

I don't trust you
all that's left are
the ruins of hopes
and my nightmares
of dreams

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It amazes me
how quickly you can
depress me
although im otherwise
quite content
living
and you made me realize
i don't live much at all
My 20/20 is blurry
and I just figured out
it was hindsight
im blinded by the sight of you
and one day
it'll all be over
and we'll wonder
where it all went.

She wants a promise I intend to
keep. There's more to her and eye than meets
the I and it's us. I'd like to make
her that promise, but something
nothing or everything
holds me back and keeps her and I-
holds us back and keeps me-
holds me back and keeps us-
waiting.
Drenched because she pours her heart
out to me, and I know she sees right through me.
I intend, I intended, I was
a star blazing across midnight, across twilight-
Fierce, brilliant, unforgettable.
The star left a dusty trail of empty.
So did I, I didn't want to.
There are no rainbows beyond this rain,
no promises I intend to make for keeps.